Think and Wonder, Wonder and Think…..Oh How I Hate Thinking

il_570xN.744566201_aufzSo today will be short.  I have had a busy day and not much time to do anything but work until about two hours ago when I sat in car waiting for my son’s practice to finish and then drive home.  Well I thought about love.  What is it?  How do I really know what love is?  How does anyone know what love is?

I can say that other than my kids I have only said I love you to two people.  One being my wife and the second being the other woman.  The weird part is I don’t even really know what it is.  I feel good with both of them (well I used to with my wife and we are getting it back) but they were so different.  I have never said or felt it from my family.  I feel a bond with her family, but is that love.  Maybe you can only feel love and know it is love when it is taken from you or you lose it.  I don’t know.

I know what I feel is different than how I feel for my kids, but if you were to ask me if I who I was in love with I don’t know that I could answer that question.  Can I love more than one person?  Romantically?  Or is one lust and excitement without the hassles of everyday life?

These are all questions I struggle with and don’t have answers.  I am not sure I will ever find the answers.  This is what happens when I have too much time on my hands.  I think and wonder, wonder and think.  It may be a silly thought until you are in a situation like this.

Think and Wonder, Wonder and Think – Dr. Seuss

About bac4sccr

I am just a run of the mill, ever day father/husband who is just trying to navigate my way back to where I want to be. Unfortunately there isn't an "Easy" button or a "Reset" button or I would be hitting them repeatedly. This is just my journey from my perspective.
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6 Responses to Think and Wonder, Wonder and Think…..Oh How I Hate Thinking

  1. gdhayes2014 says:

    I’m enjoying reading your blogs. My reply to this blog post turned into a blog of my own; much too long to post here. 🙂 So, instead, I’ll share my link.


  2. Quizzical says:

    I think you have answered your own question in this. To me; love is taking on the world together with the person you admire the most. Good, bad, ugly. You work and build on your love. Lust I feel is fun, enjoyment, no strings attached. But we all perceive things a little different.

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  3. Quizzical says:

    Sorry my phone has got a fuzzy screen.


  4. lostmyse1f says:

    I don’t think it’s a silly thought, but maybe that’s because I was in the same situation where I wasn’t sure what love was and ended up feeling it for two men at the same time.


  5. Reblogged this on Freethinkers Notes and commented:
    “I hate thinking” indeed


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